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bleh i've decided im a closet dawsons creek fan. i love and despise that show all at the same time. i hate it because its so melodramatic and emotional and unrealistic, yet i love it because i can relate to most everything in it and whenever i watch it i think of something in my life that happened. it either makes me incredibly happy or almost on the verge of being depressed. i feel pretty useless right now. its cam's bday, but im home sick. and the only way i'll get to see him is if he comes to visit me. that's not how its supposed to be. talking to mike. i wanna see him. more then a lot of thigns in life. but i can't handle it. can't do it. don't wanna see him and his new gf. don't wanna hear her voice or see them kiss. he doesn't want to see cam either. i know he doesn't. i mean hell why would he? this is starting to hurt again. its so pathetic. this is the one boy i would drop everything for, and he's 4 hrs away. he's living his own life. being his own person. and i'm just an innocent onlooker trying to see if there's any place i can fit in to his life. there's not. +The Last Five+ |