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kosher blub blub blub. i think i need a new layout. for this one, and for k-hun. and perhaps.. well i don't know about my other ones. i spent a long time yesterday looking for some and couldn't find any really good ones. so maybe it's all just a hopless cause.. righty-oh. today was a grand ole day, but i just wrote about it in my xanga so i don't think i'll talk much about it here. i think i realized a few things yesterday. and saturday night. i don't need someone to make me happy. i'm happy with the way things are right now. i have three really really great friends, and for once they are girls. but they're just fun to hang out with, and talk to, and we look out for eachother. that's what i used to have with all my friends, but i guess it kinda faded out. there are two friends in particular who i almost never see outside of school, and never talk to. it sucks the big one. because i was so so close with these two guys, and we just let life get in the way. i dunno. and now i feel like i'm intruding in on their lives. and it all sucks. big ones. but i really don't need a boyfriend. sure, i wouldn't mind having one, but i've gone this long without one, why not just go the extra mile. sometimes being with a person and just sitting next to them is just as good, if not better, then kissing and touching and blub blub blub. being with a person you love and care about, even if it's only in a friendly way, is an incredible feeling. so in short, i think i'm accepting everything as it comes. and i have a newfound respect for a certain person who i never thought i would respect. well, i did respect them.. at one point. but now i think everything is kosher once again. and that makes me smile indeed. +The Last Five+ |